Hello! I'm still alive.
But oh so very dead inside.
So I have a dilemma.. for the past few months, I've been searching for a job in order to pay for my car payments. I've applied to a variety of jobs but noNE CALL ME BACK. I FEEL THAT CHANGING MY PHONE NUMBER THIS JANUARY THAT I HAD FOR 5 YEARS TO A NEW ONE IS GIVING ME BAD LUCK AAAHHHH
*sighs* I'm calm.. I'm calm.
So my dumb dilemma is that I can't draw because in the back of my head, I have a voice telling me "search for a job; find a fucking job; you're wasting your time drawing
" etc. So I look for jobs, apply to some then I have nothing else to do.. so I try to draw but those damn thoughts are back again. As if I'm wasting my time drawing and not searching for a job. So in short, I shut down and do nothing but play video games or watch youtube... but stressfully.
It's as if I'm my own parent and I shun myself to not draw because I can't land a job.
So that is why I can't draw.
Please send help. I'm near to having an existential crisis... again. :"D
But in all seriousness, I'll try to get back into the mojo of drawing soon! Maybe I'll open up requests like I always do. C: Better yet.. art trades would be wonderful! What do you guys think? Hope all of you are having a fantastic day/night/evening.